Words that Speak to your Soul…
Wednesday, November 12th, 2008
As most of you know, its been a stressful few weeks. Money is tight, bills are piling up and I am struggling to find a decent paying job. So, not only have I been stressed, I have been neglecting my meal plan (mostly because I am having trouble keeping up on the groceries for it). When I eat bad, I feel bad. BUT..
Today while doing cardio on the cross trainer a man who I know well told me that he was more proud of me now than ever before. See this man is Austin Browne, he owns the Max Muscle Orangecrest in Riverside, CA. He has seen my fat pictures, but it was some time ago. He told me that the person in those pictures scared him. But after seeing those pictures posted on my site, he said that he was proud of me. He saw in my fat pictures the “fat, unhappy” person that I was. He could see the pain behind the smile. And in my recent pictures and the way he sees me on almost a daily basis, he sees my smile. The man on the machine on the other side of me, he laughed and said that he couldn’t believe those pictures are of me. I came to realize that I have worked hard. I have changed me for more than just looks. I have become a person who takes pride in my daily accomplishments and understands that the falls are part of the path. However, some falls take a while to get up from. Everyday still there are struggles to get motivated to go to the gym, eat right, get things done. And stress just makes them worse.
But today when I got home from the gym and logged in to twitter (I am @survifam) @iquote had just what I needed to get back on track. “A warrior doesn’t give up what he loves… he finds the love in what he does.” - Socrates. I have found love in nutrition and fitness. I have found a love for myself and my health. I have found a love for the health of my family. I have found a love in helping others and a joy in the stories of how my story or encouragement has helped them find the love for themselves. So, Socrates, Austin, and others who have given me encouragement.
Today is a NEW DAY. A NEW START. A DEDICATION to forging ahead to the goal of 18% body fat. And although money is extremely tight right now, I am going to figure out a way. I am going to do anything I can to get this goal accomplished. I AM NOT “giving up what I love!:” I am ready for this new FRESH START.again!